Out of the darkness you stepped up into the light of day. You had tried so hard to hide and for so long you lived behind your own shield of protection. The world, so cruel and so intentional, ceased to care about your thoughts or feelings. You were close to invisible but still present enough to be everyone’s doormat. The attention, at first was great. You had friends, acquaintances, and close relationships. You thought you were accepted, valued, even cherished up until, one after another, relationships ended and you were left with nothing but the feeling of loneliness.
So, behind the shield you remained, closed off, sealing your heart shut. How else could you prevent people from taking advantage of the beauty that is you? Subconsciously, you made a deal with yourself that you would never let your heart be vulnerable again. To your surprise, you had for the most part been successful. You managed to maintain relationships without feelings, portraying as if you were deeply connected, but knowing that your mind just would not allow your heart to fall.
So, that day took you by surprise and the tears began to fall. You had not been experiencing life to the fullest because your heart was closed. All this time, you thought it was them. You had not realized that you have to be open in order for God to send something or someone into your life or it just was not worth it.
So, you spent some time debating with God about why you were hiding behind that shield in the first place. The more you talked to God the more He spoke back. He told you that He has great things in store for you but you would never be able to experience them if you remained as you were. “But, I’m afraid,”you heard yourself speak silently as you prayed. In a quiet, still voice, God whispered back, “Do not worry, I got you.”