Anger destroys the very core of who you are. There is a Word that says you do not do what you want to do and you do what you do not want to do (Romans 7:15). Deep inside, you never had the desire to hurt anyone. But day after day, time after time, your emotions take control, leaving you……imprisoned by the very emotion that you tried to suppress.
You know your triggers and have spent a great amount of time trying to understand why your emotions fail you each time. You have developed a strategy that reminds you to breathe, count, and release. Nevertheless, the sparks begin to fly and the words come without warning causing those around you….pain in their hearts and broken spirits that may never be healed.
Your love is strong but your heart is heavy, consumed with your own past hurt and pain. Regardless of what blessings you now have, escaping such feelings has proven to be impossible. You see those around you as your enemy, fighting to keep you bound by your past. You fail to allow yourself to fully experience hope or love so instead you….. bury any thoughts of hope and replace them with something close to hate.
Such strong negative emotions cannot lift one person up in your life, including you. It is a matter of changing not only how you think but what you think. At some point, you must realize that the real presence of the enemy lies in how you choose to live and not the actions of those around you. Understand that you are responsible for your own happiness. Deep down within there must be healing from your own hurt and pain to keep from further damaging those you love and that love you.
Embracing the wonderful being that you are and understanding the purpose for your life will cause you to choose a different course. For neither you nor I were put here to harm anyone but instead to lift up those around us and harness the power of the greatness placed inside of us. Understanding that power and using it for the good will foster hope and inspire change in your life.
©Kimberly Seymore March 2016